and I'm confused as fuck. I'm frustrated as fuck.

I don't fucking understand if he doesn't want to hang out with me, then why keep on making plans with me. we were suppose to hang out yesterday and then somehow his friends asked if he wanted to go to Nags Head and he just went without even saying hey let's try tomorrow. he keeps on bullshitting me so why don't just let his ass go. Yeah that wasn't the first time he did that to me. Last thursday he wanted to hang out with me, but at 11 o'clock at night. do you know how frustrating and how that makes me look? It makes me look like a midnight fuck. Sex is not worth my time. At all, and UGH!

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I hate the fact that i only feel this way for guys that treat me like shit. it isn't fair :[

and the guy problem is not the only problem. My mom is continuely trying to kick me out. she'll defend her precious sons but she can't fucking stand her only god damn daughter. she's alway trying to kick me out, always trying to get me to leave.

i'm tempted to run away. just literally pack all my shit and go.

I'm sorry has become a half of sentence to me.

I'm sorry... that your love life is fucked up.

I'm sorry... that you can't take a joke.

I'm sorry... that you're alive.

I'm sorry... that you had a shitty childhood

And those are just a few.

Sometimes when i rant, i want to rant. sometimes when i cry, i want to cry..

Don't apologize to me. I don't want your sympathy only because it makes it worst for me. I don't want people to see my flaws. i see them well enough on my own. There are times i see myself i can't stand it. There are times when i can't even stand even me. So for my sake, don't apologize. if you have advice give it. if you want to comfort. do it. but don't apologize. Never do that.

When you think you've moved on from someone.

and you're good. and you don't hear from them in like forever. but now they decide to talk you. to tell you that they've liked you forever...

haha i must be dumb or some shit. seriously.

why i can't move on from a guy and seriously move on?

it was a fucking crush. so what the fuck is wrong with me.

it doesn't help that he barely text me or anything. he says he likes me. but idk. like idk....

idk.

i just want someone. i guess....

i'm just a fucking pathetic bitter bitch.

but twiggy's girlfriend is super cute xD